I've had a smoldering obsession with getting my nails done, ever since the mall date incident during the time when we were going to couples therapy. Often, just imagining having polish on my nails is enough to wind me up.
I'm taking a business trip this week, which gives me an opportunity to do it again. I'm giddy with excitement! But, I'm also a bit more ambitious: since I'm planning to buy my nail polish and remover from a drugstore near my hotel, I might as well get some basic makeup as well!
I've only very rarely tried on makeup. I don't even remember the last time, and I'm not sure I've ever tried on anything more than lipstick. This time, I'm more interested in eye makeup. I'm getting eyeliner, mascara, and maybe shadow.
I've generally avoided makeup, mostly because of the challenge of keeping it secret when I only have an hour or so at most to play dress-up. I've never felt committed enough to it to buy any, and I wouldn't dare to use my wife's. It hasn't been a crucial part of my fantasies, although my fascination with eye makeup has been growing for some time.
For some time now, I've been much more interested in not only dressing up to feel feminine, but in actually looking feminine as well. Makeup is definitely a huge part of that. I want to see how I look. I know it'll take a lot of practice, which I don't have much opportunity for, but I'm very keen on getting started.
It feels like I'm taking my femininity to a new level. Hopefully, I'm able to find what I need, and go through with it...
